If a relationship is long distance then a certain level of frustration is understood and inevitable. Life becomes centred around arranging time together, with real life responsibilities cunningly squeezed into the gaps in between in order to make that possible.
How much easier it is if your lover is under the same roof. Or so you might think.
In fact it seems currently to be much harder. Real life; work, meals, sleep all take time. It takes only the addition of a few more activities and it becomes almost impossible to find time to play together. Yes, you no longer miss their presence, there are looks, touches, cuddles and kisses every day. But it becomes much harder to justify taking time out purely for each other. There is always something more important, something which should be done today.
Right now though, I need to play. I need there to be time and space. I need to let the real world go, let all the tensions it contains right now fade away. I need to live in the moment. There needs to be pain and pleasure. Love and trust and connection.
I don’t know how to make that happen right now.